yet another original poem. (I need to learn to play something so I can put a tune to these and make them into songs, but people who play the guitar me off so I don't want to learn to play that. and there's really not much else I'd care to play. :



Walking through the snow
Tears freezing on my cheeks
Stepping through a frostbitten garden of roses
Hearing you cry behind me only sends me on further
It must have been a dream to be so close to you
You never liked me like I wanted you to
You never held affection for me
My cheeks are covered in waterfalls of ice
The snow collects on my shoulder and in my hair
The wind takes my breath away
But I can’t turn around
I can’t go back to the warmth
I can’t go back and try to make you feel warm
Though I know you must be freezing
I think you were frozen before I got there
Maybe not on the outside. On the inside
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Maggie's back from Denmark, Sarah gets back from Mexico, Sara will be back from Atlanta tomorrow, though she does leave again soon I'm pretty sure. I have no idea when mark gets back from Alabama, and I'm pretty sure Abby's ed off at me. lol.

all right, one of these days I do actually plan to get a band, when I do right now I'm thinking I want to name it "snowfall december" what do you think? I want your oppinions so email me and tell me at zeritule@hotmail.com |

song #3 of the week: "Designs on You" by old 97s |

I think that one should last me a while.
song #2 of the week: "Cruise Control" by embodyment. |

I've spent a little time compiling a list of 50 things that I would like to accomplish in my lifetime. some are realistic, some are not realistic at all. some are just kinda a joke. but here it is.

List of things to do in life


1. Read the entire wheel of time series
2. Get married
3. Spend a month in Spain
4. Spend a month in London, England
5. Spend at least a month in New Zealand.
6. Become a famous film director
7. Win an Oscar
8. Learn to play the guitar
9. Play the part of Puck in “Midsummer Night’s dream”
10. Star in a major motion picture.
11. Be the antagonist in a major motion picture.
12. See the eclipse on the roof of furrows.
13. Beat the crap out of someone.
14. Move out of Texas.
15. Write a hit play.
16. Go on a mission’s trip
17. become a spy and infiltrate a super secret society.
18. Write a best selling book.
19. become rich and buy all my friends they’re greatest dream.
20. Fall deeply and truly in love with someone who loves me as much as I love her.
21. Backpack around Europe for 2 years.
21. Invent something that revolutionizes the world
22. Make love to only one person my entire life.
23. Buy a house in the mountains in New Zealand.
24. Wake up with fog so thick I can’t see 2 feet in front of me.
25. Give a tithe of a million dollars.
26. Go on a trip to Egypt with Abby
26. Take Abby to see her cathedral up close.
27. Read all the Redwall books.
28. Run a marathon.
29. Memorize the periodic table of elemants.
30. Be someone’s best friend.
31. Get the crap beaten out of me.
32. Eat a meal consisting entirely of condiments.
33. Have a snowball fight.
34. Make a snowman.
35. Go on a bike ride with my friends in the rain.
36. Spend a whole day with my friends outside in the rain.
37. Save someone’s life.
38. Start a band and have at least 10 concerts before we go under.
39. Release an album.
40. Kiss Sharla. (I told her I would, she still doesn’t believe, but one of these days! lol)
41. Collect over 100 different kinds of shoelaces (none round and none that don’t need to be tied. I those)
42. Win state in the UIL One Act Play competition.
43. Live past the age of 70 and still be able to walk.
44. Win at least one merit award at school.
45. Download 1000 songs. (I’m currently up to 491)
46. Raise a son that speaks 4 languages before he’s 6 and knows more geography than I know now. He’ll also know his math quite well. He’ll be able to read, and write. And he’ll be wise beyond his years, and then I’ll put him in the best darn private school I can find and they’ll teach him to the best of their ability and he’ll be very social and not some nerdy loser with no friends. He’ll be decent and have good morals that he sticks to. He’ll find a great and marry her lateish in his years and he’ll be rich and prosper wonderfully.
47. Make all hundreds in at least one of my academic classes.
48. Make over 100 things to do on this list.
49. Write a book of poetry and get it published.
50. Spend a whole day lying in a hammock in the rain listening to music.
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song of the week: "Question" by old 97s. download it. it's awesome.

word of the week: "contrails"

quote of the week: "never acuse a friend of a crime if all you have is a "feeling" that they did it" -John Knowles (A Seperate Peace) |

well as of today I'm finished with counseling. I'm glad I'm through with that. I didn't like it at all. of course. I only had two sessions. lol. not much to say really. I'm gonna get to hang out with Caleb tomorrow. haven't seen that little fella since his birthday party. then hopefully I'll get to spend saturday with Sharla. I miss Sharla. I haven't seen her in months. well anyway, I have to go before my mom kills me so I'll blog again when the time is suiting. adios amigos. |

you know what I just realized? Becks isn't a word. it's supposed to be checks. oh well. typos are typos. well anyway, I'm back from Mexico and Church Camp and Roundrock and Being Grounded. hello again everyone. Mexico was awesome! I met a super cool named Sarah. and an annoying little twit named Jared. but all and all it was lots of fun and a great experience. Church camp was tons of fun also. I really enjoyed it. I got so much reading done while I was grounded. I don't think I'll stop my reading spree. I kinda enjoyed it. I'll keep it up. I think I'm gonna read "A Seperate Peace" next. I have it sitting in my room. I didn't know we had it until yesterday. well, anyway, I went to court today and they sentanced me to $150 fine or 12 hours of comunity service. So of course I picked the comunity service. I think I'll spend most of it at the library. I wonder what they'll make me do there...

I can't wait to get my pictures developed from my trip. I got some great ones, and about 20 horrible ones cause the little Mexican kids took my camera from me. WE duct taped a little bitty black kid to the wall at camp. or at least we tried. I got a picture of the croud standing around him, but I was a little too late to get a picture of him up on the wall kicking and screaming. he kicked another guy in the nuts while he was up there and the guy (who was like seriously 3 times his size) hit him in the face. it was awful. Everyone got mad and he got chased outside in an angry mood. this all happened in the dorm while my room was trying to go to sleep. we were the only room in the entire dorm that actually tried to get some sleep. it was depressing. but I was sooo exhausted. There was also waaayy too much ness going on in that dorm. all the other people kept mooning and streaking and doing german sit-ups and other really gross things. and someone brought boxing gloves.s o all day long there was always a boxing match in room 5. it was pretty cool. haha. well, this blog is rediculously long, but I do need to make up for lost time. I haven't blogged in like a month. how depressing. actually I haven't blogged in 21 days. oh well. have a great day everyone! bye. |

well, I made $435 for my missons trip and I only needed $300, and a bunch of the becks are made out to me so... haha
just kidding. I'll use some for spending money while I"m up there and then I'll probably put the rest in the offering at church or something. it's wrong to steal money from people like that, but I can't give it back because they gave it to me and they want to help out and how am I suppose to decide who to give it back to? so I'm just gonna put it in the offering. that sounds decent. well, I'm leaving friday for Round Rock, and I'll get briefed or whatever they'll do. probably probing or something. and then we're off to Mexico on monday. just 6 days! and I'll be back from that on I think the 13th, but I'm staying in round rock I think until church camp which I think is on the 17th or something, and then I should be back on the 20th. Then I'll finally be able to blog freely again. well, I miss being able to blog whenever I want. I'll talk to you all again later. bye. |