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well, the baseball game sucked. The Astros lost 3 to 1, and really nothing happened. However, there were two idiots that ran onto the feild and took off their shirts and got tackled by the fat security guards and that really really brightened my day. it was wonderful. Then they skipped away cheerfully and handcuffedly off to jail. Unfortunately it took up 9 hours of my day and I missed a phone call from Kristina, and I didn't get a chance to go over to Sara's today. My little brotehr got the two towers DVD for his birthday today, so seth is coming over and we're gonna watch that for sure. oh, it's my little brother's brithday today, and yesterday was my little brother michael's birthday. Happy B-day to them! woo hoo!

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well it's early in the morning, and I've been mostly working on changing the text, but I will for sure change the colors, maybe I'll have time to do that today. well anyway, I hope you all enjoy the layout of my blog, and I can't wait to get my weather pixie!! have a great day everyone. |

Sara, I'm sorry that I never made it over to your house. My parents wouldn't let me ride my bike in the rain.

well, blog is . I'm never going to get this all figured out and fixed. but hey, I'll either get it all down, or die in the attempt. I'm definately going to set this up on a different blog and mess around with it on that one so I don't completely kill my blog. I've posted too many times on this one to lose it. So for now, I'm very sorry, but you'll have to put up with the horribleness of a downloaded, uncostomized, complex, ugly, blog. I'll try and fix it up as soon as possible. |

Hey Sesalle, since I know you're going to read this, I'm posting it to you and I do expect you to enjoy it. if you don't enjoy it then I think I'll jump off a cliff and land two feet down and not hurt myself at all! well anyway, I hope you're having a fantastic day, and I'm glad that I'm talking to you and that you're reading my blog. and I hope you like my new template, though of course, you can't compare it to my old one because you haven';t seen the old one. |

well, I was gonna ride my bike over to Sara's and visit her, but it's been raining al morning, I'm not sure if I'm going to or not, though, sitting here saying this, I think I'm gonna go really soon and see how it works out. I really hope I get to ride my bike there in the rain. I love the rain.

I'm really sorry that my computer blocks out words and parts of words. there's nothing I can do about it. I try to fix it, and it just cuts hem out again. |

we were at the mall today, I really the mall, but Jared lost his balloon on the ceiling and these 4 random s came by and they were all like, "we can get it for you, we're s" and then they lifted one of them up and she grabbed it and it was really cool. haha. |

and the rain fell down from heaven, cleansing the people of their inequities. |

all right, for a word scramble in multimedia they gave me "ciphaehiscootookecl" and "TUNLECMIH" they, of course, relate to computers. Unscramble that! But hey, that's the only even slightly dificult thing we've done in that class so far. and probably that we'll ever do.

So far in school I've had a steady diet of two hours of homework a night. It's getting old. and yet, I still manage to find way too much free time. I should probably get more sleep. |

Well, day two of school is over, and tomorrow is a B day, so that'll be fun. I'm really loking forward to tomorrow. I get to have English, and Drama, and Church, and Lunch with everyone. I'm gonna sit with Sara at least for a little while tomorrow. I'm really hoping it's going to be a good day. I woke up at 3:15 this morning feeling really sick, I drank some water and went back to sleep and felt just fine. Man am I glad I went back to sleep. I'm tired enough as it is. And poor little dirk lays in my bed all morning until right before I'm about to leave and then he gets up and wants to play, but I had to go. I can't wait to see Amy's new puppy. we all need to go over there and play with it for hours when she finally gets it. |

Well Sara and Nathan's joint party was a great idea, though I do kinda wish that we could have had 2 parties. Dylan and Matt suck. It's a shame Abby and Michael got there so late and had to leave so early. I really really liked "bringing down the house" we need to play Mafia more often, but actually play it and not have a bunch of fuddy duds who don't participate. and dylan and matt can't ever play, because they're fudd duds. I have too much homework. I hope you all have yet another good week of school. and I really hope this one isn't so tireing and long. |

It rained after school again today. I love the rain. I days where it rains all durring school and stops after school and I never get to see it. It's best when it rains on fourth period B days though because in the black box you can hear the rain so clearly and it sounds so wonderful. And then I have a higher chance of getting to be out in the rain for a little while after school.

Today in Spanish we got to work in groups and Abby Browning got up from her chair and walked all the way the the opposite side of the room, since her last name starts with B and mine starts with V and we're seated alphebetically, and she sat next to me to be my partner. It made my day. I just wish we did have three whole freaking pages to translate. We worked in a group of 5 with the sub who spoke pretty darn good Spanish helping us a lot cause we sat around his desk. He was really cool. but we only got about 2/3 of it done and now I have to do the rest at home alone. but all in all it was a good class period. |

I shouldn't be hard to find...
I'll be the one with my big mouth moving;
my big words, saying nothing.
I hope you know
it's not my father's fault I'm such a bore,
and so afraid of everything.
I'm keeping inside; living in my mind;
hoping that the telephone don't ring
with, "It's all right... pain is universal, baby"
and worrying about what I'm going to sing.
I'm staying in, and saving up my energy.
I know my day is coming.
And when I find it, I will rewind it
(and play it over again a hundred times).
And when I hear it, I will not fear it
I will say it back again, and say, "I'm fine."
("Relief!..." "Relief!...")
"I'm fine."


if school's going to be this tireing all year, I'm afraid I'll have to sleep 23 hours a day. |

well, I finally got around to asking Sara to help me put up comments because I'm stupid and I can't figure it out on my own, and she knows all about everything there is to know about blogging. lol. so I have comments now. which means that the two or three people that might actually read my blogs on occasion can post a comment if they want. yipee. well, today was a great day at school, 'cept that I didn't get to see Sara at lunch, well I saw her, but lunch was almost over, and she was walking around with dylan, and I really don't like him, and there were about a million people in between us. but I did get to see Sarah. and I actually talked to her. lol. well have a great day everyone, and try and post a comment or two. it'll make me really happy. lol.

song of the month, week, day or so...: Scarborough Fair, by Simon and Garfunkel |

well I spent practically the whole day doing homework today. I'm definately an overachiever, I handwrote that essay 5 times. I had to see if it would fit. I'm a nerd for sure. But hopefully my teacher will like it. I'm so ready for school tomorrow. I'm so glad this assignment was as free range as it was. Or at least I hope it's as free ranged as I think it is, cause if it's not I'm screwed. I took the rules that she said and went a bit far with them. we'll see how it goes tuesday. I shouldn't have even started on this stuff yet if I was one of the cool kids. good thing I'm not. |

I finally got to see CTR play! it was sooo awesome! I want to go to all of their shows. all of them. and it would be really cool to set up for them and take down for them. Even cooler if I got payed for it ;). but I'd do it for free. me and Sara really should give everyone else up and just hang out with Russell and his friends, cause they're soo much cooler than dylan and others. lol. they actually do stuff. Well I had a great time hanging out with Sara and Russell and others and watching the band play, even if everyone else d them cause the church was full of a bunch of stupid posers and sissys. lol. I liked the big scary bald guy that preached too. He was cool, other than the barefoot thing. Man I feet!
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Well, we wrapped Robert smith's house, and he got really mad, or so I've heard, but I haven't talked to him in a long time. he's on my msn list, but everytime I try to talk to him it says the message can't go through. wow msn sucks. well anyway, school started, I got mostly good teachers, and I have friends in all my classes 'cept IPC. I'm going to that class. but hey, one out of 8 is pretty darn good. MeMe Taylor was in advanced drama, though I'm not sure how, since she was in alternative half of last year. I guess mr. white liked her for some reason. Advanced, drama... that's going to be an interesting class. Seth is going to be sooo uncomfortable, I feel sorry for him. I kinda fit right in, but Seth's too reserved. I really hope I get to marry Abby Browning in Spanish 2. lol. and the greatest thing is, it wasn't my idea, it was hers. I don't have a crush on her or anything, and she's had a b/f since like the beggining of last year, (daniel fritz) but she's really cool, and it would be awesome to marry her. I have lunch with Sara, AND Sarah! I'm sooo happy. lol.

Friday we all got together and did really pretty much nothing as it's been recently. which is kinda depressing, but I still enjoy it a lot more than sitting home alone, I think, well sometimes I do. I like to be at home alone. well anyway, like right at the start of it all these random weird events lead up to me punching dylan in the teeth and really messing up my hand. My fingers are soo swollen after like holding ice on thme for 5 hours. it sucks. but hey, it's my own fault. at least I didn't bleed all that much, and I did mess up his mouth a little, but I wish it was more obvious and long lasting cause it just makes me feel like a woosie seeing how he came away without a noticable mark and my hand is all ied and swollen. it was sooooo stupid! I'm never getting in a fight again!!! but I am pretty happy that I've finally punched someone in the face. that's a pretty stupid thing to say, I know, but hey, I just follow the movies, and it looks pretty cool in those. I'm soo stupid!

Abby has been taking me to school. I'm soo happy for that. it's the greatest, I really the bus. but as usual, I take someone's kind act and I just make them angry at me. I really shouldn't say things like I did ever again to anyone. Abby, if you read this, once again, I'm sorry, and I swear I'll never do it again. and thank you sooo much for taking me to and from school. you're awesome.

Sara says she wants to spend more time with me. That's soo awesome. lol. She's really cool. I should so very much like to spend more time with her also.

I saw Sarah today, God, too many Saras and stuff, it gets confusing, at least they're spelt differently. well anyway, I hadn't seen her in a long long time. too long. Well, it was really awkward, she's really shy, and I get shy around shy people, and I didn't know what to say, and I just felt really really awkward, and it didn't last very long cause we went our seperate ways, which is even more awkward. She's really cool though. I just wish I had a class with her, it really sucks that I don't. I kinda expected not to have any classes with Sara, and I was really really happy to have lunch with her, but I was really hoping for a class with Sarah, and I didn't get one. oh well. lunch is good. I like lunch, 'cept that all my friends tried to sit at one row of tables, well kinda. my sophmore friends had one row of tables, and my junior friends had their other row of tables, pretty farish apart, and there are too many, and it was difficult. lol.

I stole matt brewster's chair while he was throwing something away or something, and he started pulling me back, and Bellami was sitting at the other side of the table, and she reached out her hands, and I grabbed them, and she tried to pull me back, and then matt came out from in between my legs, cause he crawled under the chair, and I gave birth to him. It was really crazy.

Well anyway, this has been a really really long blog, I'm sorry it was soo long, I'll try and blog more often from now on instead of in mass every once in a while. thank you for reading. have a great day. bye. |

The party was great! there were about 12 people there, all good friends with each other, so we were all real comfortable with everyone and stuff. We played Clue, which was awesome, and we listened to lots of switchfoot. We also told Robert that he had a preasent outside, then me seth and jay snuck up behind him and totally covered him in silly string. Twas awesome. He had no idea. haha. Also, Robert's cousins were evil little people that rode my bus, and I got to tell them I d them. And I got to know his cousin Britni a little better (I don't know and don't care how to spell it. too many ways.) She was really cool. She's an identical twin who has the same birthday as my little brother michael. |

haha, there's still a lack of blogging. but I did finish my comunity service. thank God. The last day I had to work with this idiot who was doing his fourth year as a freshman in high school. He had 100 comunity service hours to do. And he did 2 years in like a child penitentiary for arsin. He burned down a store after he and who knows who else robbed it. He had also stolen three cars, blew one of them up. And done who knows what else. I people. lol. But I'll hopefully never have to do that again. My retainer is going to kill me if I don't get another one soon. very soon. my tongue hurts soo bad. Well I saw Bobbie at the theater yesterday. Is she the Ryan guy at the mall? when did that happen? why does she always date older guys? don't really like him. He cusses too much, and he's not very funny. well anyway, the power went out which sucked. So instead we rented a movie and then watched 3 of my brothers, one of which I hadn't seen before.

Robert's down from Round Rock for his birthday party which is tonight at 6. So I'm definately going to that. I miss Sarah, and Sarah, and Sara. lol. I haven't seen any of them in soo long. When is Sara gonna get back from her grandma's or whatever? she gets back today right? well no one is going to answer this and I know she gets back today so I don't know why I'm posting this but I am so ha! and you can just deal with it! though I don't think anyone even reads my blog so it realyl doesn't matter. but to those of you who do, you are truly good friends of mine and I love ya. have a great great day. |

well, there's been a total lack of blogging on my part of recently. I've been really busy. I've worked a lot of comunity service hours, and I got my braces off and stuff, and I have to get my retainer, but hopefully that will all be over tomorrow.
it should be. and then I'll start blogging a bit more maybe. well anyway, I GOT MY BRACES OFF!!!!! have a good day everyone. |

my favorite poem ever (but I think my computer blocks out parts of it, any way, a sepulchre is a place where they kept the ):

ANNABEL LEE

by Edgar Allan Poe
(1849)

It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of ANNABEL LEE;--
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.
She was a child and I was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea,
But we loved with a love that was more than love--
I and my Annabel Lee--
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.
And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud by night
Chilling my Annabel Lee;
So that her high-born kinsman came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
In this kingdom by the sea.
The angels, not half so happy in Heaven,
Went envying her and me:--
Yes! that was the reason (as all men know,
In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of a cloud, chilling
And my Annabel Lee.
But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we--
Of many far wiser than we-
And neither the angels in Heaven above,
Nor the s down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee:--
For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise but I see the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling, my darling, my life and my bride,
In her sepulchre there by the sea--
In her tomb by the side of the sea.
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I think I really like to write about the weather. it just gives me a good picture in my head. it makes me happy. haha. oh well. not really anything has been going on at all. we had a guest speaker at church today. he was pretty good. I liked him. played lots and lots of halo over at seths house after we went to see bruce almighty. I liked it a lot. had a great time. and we saw a sign that said "12 cokes 25.99 it was sooo awesome! it made me happy! lol. it was supposed to say "12 cokes 2/5.99 but they screwed up. it was great. seths dad stopped across the street to get some ice cream, and he had mentioned it but we missed it, so when he stopped we got out and ran over to it and sure enough he was right.

I would like to say something in memoriam of Abby's dog chloe...I never really saw much of her, she followed me and her around for a while once and she was really cute. I do believe that there's a doggy heaven, and I think she's having fun up there. and if there isn't, then she's certainly not unhappy or in any pain. and I'm glad that her was quick.

well, that was like all that's happened since last I blogged. now for yet another poem thing to make up for lost time. since I haven't bl;ogged in like 4 days.

The sun falls on raindrops as they fall to the earth
Landing on children, houses where people live
Filling the streets with the soft blue of the water
Bringing life to flowers and trees and birds
Sliding down on leaves and landing on blades of grass
Covering people as they go on their way
Sifting through the ground and sliding down walls
To mix with rivers and streams that bring life
Slipping down Palisades, and falling on eagles
Only to one day be caught up again in the sky
Where, for a time, it will be free to fly
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Why can’t I ever write anything happy? I’m a happy person. At least, I think I am, and if I think then I am then I probably am right? I just don’t like happy things. They’re sappy and stupid. Well anyway, since I have nothing good to blog about and I don’t want to sit here and tell you how much I my parents right now, I’ll just say that I’m really really sorry to hear about Abby’s dog Chloe and leave you all with yet another poem. Oh and by the way, no one reads my blog at all. I’m writing this for absolutely no reason. How depressing.

Clearity of Rain

The blue contrails blend with the sky and open up a world of moments
I look away for just a moment to find you sitting on your bed
Looking through your window like I’ve done so many times before
You don’t know I’m here, but I don’t mean to harm you
I just love you more than you know I do
And you me, you’re afraid of me, of the way I am

The raindrops splash in the puddles scattered around the street
The raindrops mix with the tears on my face
I scream your name out to your window though I know you’re not home
I know you want me to but I can’t make myself leave you alone
Even when I freak you out you’re nice to me, you’re so sweet

The snow falls in the frozen puddles scattered around the street
I think I’ll say my first words to you today
Maybe then you’ll know who I am, maybe I’ll have a chance
I ring your doorbell and introduce my self to your mom
She calls you and you walk to me, running at second glance
You wrap your arms around my snow covered neck
You kiss my chapped and frozen lips

The raindrops crash upon the windows and make the most pleasant sound
You rock in your chair by the fire humming a song we’ve heard a thousand times
I sit at the table looking out the window watching the raindrops splash
In the puddles scattered around the streets
I ask you why you ever loved me and all you had to say was
“I sat outside your window so many days wishing to meet you
But I was always too afraid that you would me
I thought I would scare you if I ever said hello because you didn’t know who I was

Our children run in circles in the yard while the rain falls on their shoes
I turn to you and smile knowing that I’m the luckiest person alive
There’s nothing on this earth that from you I would deprive

I watch you fall asleep knowing that you’ll never wake up again
The rain splashes on my hairless head and runs its course through the winkles in my face
Down to the ground to be washed away in the gutter
I don’t want to be without you, but it’s not my choice
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