So, moving on to more pleasant topics, I went to go see Phantom of the Opera today with Natalie and company up in Houston. Aside from the fact that Raul was a stand in, and was not very good, and the chandallier crashing was pretty lame, the show was quite good. Actually, it was probably the best show that I have yet to see, but that doesn't say much since I have not seen many professional shows. It was still really great, and I had a lot of fun.

On another note, Ben said that motherload would eventually get too frustrating and difficult, and that I would give up on it as he did long ago, but I showed him. I stayed up long into the morning, finally defeating Satan around 5:00 Am.needless to say, I'm exhausted, and I don't much feel like blogging anymore. I just wanted to push all the other posts down a bit. |

jeeze, you guys are all talking like I beat the crap out of someone. I didn't hurt anyone, nor did I even threaten to. I didn't act in violence. I didn't do anything violent at all. No offence to anyone, but you all have it wrong. I got angry, I did, I'll admit it. I was wrong to be as angry as I was, but that doesn't mean that I have an anger problem. everyone gets mad. It's not a sin to be angry, it's not unchristian to be angry, as much as you seem to all believe, it's not. God gets angry, heck, God got angry and slaughtered thousands of people more than once. I'm not saying that I'm going to do that, and I am saying that I'm NOT going to do that. I'm NOT going to do that. I'm NOT going to hurt anyone, just like I HAVN'T hurt anyone. So stop acting as if I did.

I am not unchristian, I am not far from God, and I do not have anger problems. You don't know about everything, you don't know what I've been through or why I've acted the way that I have. Most of you apparently don't even know how I actually did act.

Another thing, you all act as if Mark hasn't done anything to anyone. If you only knew all of the crap I and my friends have been because of him...He is far from blameless. I don't hate people for no reason, and I don't hate people easily. There are two people in this world that I truly hate, and he is one of them. And he deserves to be hated more than anyone else I've ever known.

Yet another thing, Julie is not blameless in this. I don't get upset with her without reason. I will admit, I she didn't deserve to have me as angry at her as I was, but I did have good reason to be upset with her. I'm just tired of explaining it. Maybe when the storm stops and I'm not so worried of losing power just as I'm about to post this, i'll spend the time to explain why. |

okay, so I just spent a very long time writing a very long comment which I later decided (after I attempted to post it and failed, losing every single word of it in the large black mass that is the electronic graveyard) that it should have been a blog post.

but, alas, I am too lazy to write it all out again. A true shame. A true shame indeed. I'll do it later. |

why can't people just mind their own freaking business? (directed toward Amy) |

yeah, AP tests suck. I think I'll just retake them next year. Only not the physics one. |

I hate my blog |

So...the issue is mostly resolved, but unfortunately the last little bit that I'm waiting to have over and done with is the most important part of it all. Julie, oh Julie...why does it have to be this way? When will it all end? I still do not understand why any of this started in the first place.

I've learned something very important this month: the fantastic four video game is only two players. Who's the idiot that decided that!? It's the fantastic FOUR, not the fantastic two. Freaking jerks...

Julie, I'm going to kill my pride and self respect and I'm gonna say it out in the open in front of the two people that still check this blog accasionally: I love you, I love you with all my heart, and I want you back. I feel like I should be the one taking you back for screwing things up so much, but apparently I'm too much of a loser to have that luxury, so I'm begging for you to take me back because if the decision were mine to make, I would take you back in a heartbeat without a second thought. I love you. You're my whole world. And now I've embarassed myself in front of a couple of people by begging you back publicly and getting turned down... |